I did get my blood test results and surprise surprise, EVERY SINGLE THING WAS NORMAL. Even my thyroid levels were normal. I’ve had an under-active thyroid for most of my life. Why am I always freezing? Why can’t I concentrate? Why am I always hungry? Why do I have such trouble urinating? I have no fucking clue because apparently I’m not really sick.
I was supposed to look for a psychiatrist to help me deal with this, but since everything is normal and within range, I don’t see the point. Clearly my body is able to deal with a lack of nutrition and I would be wasting everyone’s time if I went for treatment. See, I knew I was faking this. Now I have proof. I honestly don’t think the doctor even believed me. I mean, what sort of sorcery is involved in losing 165 pounds in 12 months? I doubt a psychiatrist would believe me and I’m not about to receive treatment for an illness I don’t have. Maybe, someday, when I’m finally underweight and maybe actually in need. Until then, I’ll be here, fasting and restricting. Desperately trying to lose the fat that envelopes my potato-like body.