Went drinking tonight. Three beers and barely a ripple from them. But of course, since I can’t allow anyone to see me in a vulnerable state, I had some french fries with them. I know I will regret it in the morning at weigh in, but I needed the night. On the bright side, my urine is no longer the colour of a Lager. So bonus points for rehydrating myself! I could explain why I needed to drink, but tbh, I just needed it.
And amazingly, my best friend was actually worried about me driving home. She has told me before that she would drive me if I ever got too trashed. Am I the only person who is amazed to discover that people actually care about them? Like, I constantly find it shocking when someone likes me. I just want to ask them WHY. Why in god’s name do you like me? What is it that made you want to befriend me? I never ask, of course, but I always wonder.
On an unrelated note, does anyone else have these flashes of people or places? I have been having these flashes of people who I know are my friends, a small group of people, and they are doing things and having fun. Always the same group of people. It’s like I’m supposed to be with them, but I’m trapped in this completely different world. I’ve been having similar feelings about Colorado for a couple of years. I’ll be driving and then have this “shift” where I feel like I need to be heading to Colorado for some reason. No, it has nothing to do with pot. Both of them seem extremely real at the time. The feeling of not belonging here has plagued me for most of my life, but only recently have the flashes begun. I’m sure this means I’m crazy…please don’t have me committed.