Every now and then you have those days, or several of them, where you absolutely eat anything in sight. I hate those days, they make me feel like shit. I’m not talking about having a binge, at least not in the usual sense of the word. These are the days where you give yourself permission to eat and then you just don’t stop. You have a bite here and then a snack later, on and on. These days are more like what a healthy person experiences…several small meals and snacks a day. I typically don’t consume enough calories on these days to call it a “normal day,” however I do eat considerably more than usual.
So how do you break the cycle when it happens? My only cure, and it works for me, is to force a fast the next day. I will skip and skip and restrict until I’m weak the next day. This forces my stomach to shrink back down. Is it hard? You bet your ass. Would I love to just go get ice cream with friends after we devour an entire pizza? Duh! But I know if I continue eating whatever I want, whenever I want, I’ll be as big as a house. So I force myself to wait. Does this work for everyone? Nope. Do I recommend this? I only recommend finding it in yourself to love the person you are, be happy with yourself.
Needless to say, after a couple of days of having more than I should, I forced a fast today. Naturally it came on the one day I was working 11 hours solid. Naturally, it’s also the one day when the entire city decided to drop by the shop. So I am fucking starving, completely devoid of brain activity, and beyond exhausted. Thank the stars for drugs and alcohol. My saving grace.