Wow, its been ages since I posted. I have been working like a crazy person and I am mostly settled in my new apartment. I really have no idea what possessed me to believe I could work with food without going insane. Oddly enough, I am not craving ANY of the baked goods in the shop. The exhausting thing is working 7-9 hours on an empty stomach. Watching ppl around you shoving food in their face and then coworkers offering you food, ugh FML. The only saving grace is I can just say “oh no thanks, I’m Paleo, so I don’t eat any of that.” God bless strict food plans! So I don’t eat any grains or oats, rice, legumes, dairy, or vegetable seed oils. All this in addition to other foods I don’t eat, means I eat vegetables and some fruits, thats it. I pretty much have myself to less than 100 calories everyday, with most days being under 50 calories. Yesterday I ate about 22 calories in the form of a tomato. Today will be the same. I put on a good face at work so no one knows how exhausted and hungry I am.
I do love the job, the ppl I work with are mostly awesome. Some of the teenagers are annoying but that goes without saying. I fit in too, they mostly drink excessively and smoke weed. I finally found someone to hook me up too. Thank god.
Its been a good while since I sh. I am so much less depressed. I still have my moments, usually surrounding the times when my mother decides to give me the silent treatment for no reason. It’s also been a couple weeks since I got blackout drunk. Im actually not happy about that one. Being blitzed is one of the few times I don’t think so damn much.
Ages more to say but thats all for now.