So I think I may need to confess. I have been drinking, a lot. Like a lot a lot. In the past month I have killed 3 bottles of wine, 2 bottles of vodka, and a bottle of tequila. All by myself. I drink until I blackout. And I blackout every time I drink. In the last month, I have blacked out 4 times, maybe 5. The last couple of times, I have passed out. I don’t remember most of the nights. I have no idea what I have done or said. I drink alone so no one can really fill in the gaps. I do drunk tweet, or dweet as I call it. So I can go back and look at those to see what I was doing. Once, I asked a random person to marry me. That got a bit awkward. I don’t have hangovers, so its like a party with no side effects. I did wake up this morning with a headache. Rare.
The thing is, I actually enjoy drinking and I’m secretly proud of blacking out. It’s like a badge of honour for me. I know that sounds INSANE, but its true. I am a party girl, the only problem is I usually party alone.
What worries me is that I will be moving home in a few days. I don’t want my family to know about my drinking, but I also don’t want to stop having fun. Should I say something or just hide it? I don’t know what to do.